complaints. beware.

i realize there are so many people out there who have it worse than me. I KNOW THIS. and usually i am not one to feel sorry for myself... but today was a hard day, and i literally got NO sleep last night... i have been up for almost 38 hours, and i am feeling a bit overwhelmed. you don't have to read any of this. trust me.

in other news, i have severe esophagitis, gastritis and dysphasia… i’m being testing for gastroperesis tomorrow at like, 7 am… sooo early…
and they’re starting me on medication for a slow thyroid tomorrow. they tested it because with all my digestive crap going on, i’ve been eating, like, 700 cals a day tops, and hardly anything solid at all… and i’ve GAINED like 22 lbs. so that’s that.

my diabetes doctor dumped me, saying i wasnt complying with what she told me to do, which is not the case at ALL. i hadnt seen her in a while because she is “so busy” and her physicians assistant told me a week before she dumped me that i was doing everything i was siupposed to be doing, and that we were going to figure all this out together. yeah, guess not. so i have to go see a specialist in denver for that.

and in november i’ll probably be starting chemotherapy for my arthritis. it’s a SMALL SMALL DOSE taken orally, so hopefully the ends will justify the means on that one.

again. asdfghjkl;

i just want… i dont even know.

someone to snuggle with would be nice, though.